Happy New Years.

December 31, 2010

It’s 11:00PM on New Years Eve.
Thought I’d do this now, because I won’t get a chance to later.

I want to wish all of you a Happy New Year, and I hope that you’re all safe and that you don’t end up impregnating anyone tonight.  Hope 2011 is good to you, and I also hope that you all find happiness and love and comfort in something/someone.

I don’t know where all of us will be a year from now, when we’re complaining about how fast 2011 went, but I hope we’ve all changed for the better.
I hope we’re all happy and safe and in love.
I hope we’re all alive.

So much has happened this year.
So much death, loss, tears, laughs, hugs, smiles, etc.

I just hope, there’s less of the bad and more of the good.
Happy New Year everyone.
I love each and every one of you, and I thank you for the support you’ve given me in leaving comments or asking questions on my formspring. You’re all great and you deserve so much.

Have a good one.


And if you give a damn, take me baby. Or leave me.

Everything that drains you, or makes you tired.
Everything that tells you, ‘Give up. You’re not worth it. Sink into the ground where you belong.’ The voices in your head eventually subside.

It’s my birthday in 4 days.
It might be hard for some people. They’ll have to deal with a change in their life.
Though, it won’t be that big of a change. I never made much of a difference.
But it will be one of two changes.

They will either have to deal with my death, or with my going off to find life.
As of late, though I feel drained and dead, I’m finding myself wanting to live. I’m finding myself looking at old couples and smiling. Or looking at a laughing child, and laughing back. When a few months ago, I would have turned away and frowned. I’m finding beauty in things I once looked at with such hatred.

I want to live.

There’s only us, there’s only this. Forget regret, or life is yours to miss.
No other road, no other way, no day but today.

December 10, 2010

Do you ever get the unsettling feeling that every bad thing in the world is your fault?
I’m exaggerating. Let me word it differently.
Do you ever feel like,  all the negative energy’s and occurrences around you, were caused by you and only you? And that you are the one to blame for every negative aspect that enters the lives of everyone around you?

My mother is a particularly picky woman. I made the mistake of thinking it was okay to have a go at her for it during dinner time. My father got the joke and joined in.
Big mistake. She, of coarse, got angry.  They started fighting, and soon after, silence followed.
I couldn’t eat any more, so I came here instead.

I never thought I’d dislike Christmas, but it’s starting to lose it’s magic.


I’ve got a Casino Electric. It looks like a blue Stratrocaster. I really hate the shape, I can’t stand it.
I really wanna white Gibson ES. They’re amazing.  Maybe, one day. I need a job.

So, I spent today walking down to Green Valley. I’ve had Red bull, V, coffee and some ice cubes.
Bought some Conditioner.

On my way home, I left my two cans near my other V can. If you’re from around here, they’re sitting near Aubrey Keech Reserve, leaning on a fence. Since I got home, I’ve been listening to The Libertines, The Kooks, Green Day, and Killing Joke, while looking at guitars and trying to find the sexiest one. I’m starting to feel  a little sick and I’ve got a headache, I think it’s because I’m wearing a jumper in this heat, but I can’t be bothered taking it off.
My family are putting up the Christmas tree up today.  Or rather, they’re washing it, then putting it up. I don’t like participating in the whole, ‘decorating the house for Christmas’ thing. Simply because, it depress’ me. Knowing that I’m spending, yet another Christmas in this place terrifies me.

I hate drinking water, because not only does it taste like nothing, it somehow manages to still be gross. But, my mother had a go at me for not drinking enough, so I got myself into a bet and now I have to drink 2 litre’s of this liquid air a day. I’m going to be pissing like crazy.

What are you doing today? I feel slightly at peace.  I don’t know why, but it seems like something about today has just relaxed me. I mean, I feel active and I want to run around in circles and such, but at the same time, I feel like I’ve just had an amazing sleep. I wonder how long this will last for?

How do you feel? Also, what are some of your favourite musicians? I wanna know what you guys are in to.